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Heartbreak Away

I could not tell when and why my feelings got so deep. But with the perfection of your body, the beauty in your eyes, that smile that makes me go weak...what other option would I have? How you kindled my dark with the immortal lustres of the day. All I ever wanted was to be that person you told all your secrets to, that person you banked all your trust on. Will it be strange for me to say, I sleep only to dream of you? Well...

Will you take me back? I know I broke your heart. I know I promised heaven, took you in circles then left you in hell. I know I promised not to be like everyone else but ended up to be the exact replica of the cliché blueprint. A transient spark of flickering flame set in loam of clay. I know I promised to be there for you when you are down but I let you fall hard on the rock bottom of my empty promises and broken lies. I know I promised our relationship to be bliss but it ended up being a petri dish full of heartache and misery. I know I came in your life kicked everything upside down in the name of spontaneity just to leave you in a turmoil unable to find your way back to happiness. I also know I cannot make all this wrongs and disappointments right.

Every ounce of your love, you had enriched me. It is a fact. Patience is a virtue and patient with me you were. Mistake after mistake. You even let me take away, your last bit of innocence. Still, all that was not enough. I still craved for more. I craved for more, not from you, but others like you.

If you take me back, I will dedicate my life solely to making you happy. Wipe your tears and help piece back together the heart I broke to a million pieces. Even if it is impossible, I will try. I will pick every shard of your heart and fix it in its place even if it means cutting myself in the process. And those Rose flowers that you like so much, I will make sure you get a bouquet every morning you wake. I know I said they are a cliché, thorny and they smelled funny but now I understand why you love them. They are supposed to remind me that you might appear ordinary and mundane but if I run my fingers through the branches I will find your edges and thorns. Thorns that make you unique, a gem to be valued.  Now I know that, your absence has made my heart to grow fonder for you, knowing that I caused you sorrow wrinkles my soul. Please forgive me, and I will value you for the gold bricks that you are and not dimes that I took you for before. Say the word and you are mine I will not deceive again.

Every night, I feel a tear roll down my cheek. I am sorry to have pushed you away. Sorry I was not there for you. My heart hurts and I know yours hurts too. Even much more. How could it be that I let our love fall? Now all I have left of you are the memories of the goodness I have lost. A loss that brings sadness every time I think of your name.

Therefore, if you take me back what is mine will be yours.  You will be my window, giving me a clear view of the good things that my future holds and I will be like the rain ready to fall and wash away your pain. We will hold hands and face the world together. Remember when we first met? It was we against the world; will we ever find our way back there? Let us find US again. Remember when we sat at the balcony and watched clouds envelop the moon! We sat there blissfully unaware of time as it passed by, as the cold faded away overpowered by the beating of two hearts merging into oneness. I sometimes find myself walking, not knowing where to go but I always end up in that special place that we know. Remember that time we filled an empty wine bottle with Coca-Cola, dimmed the lights and lit a candle pretended to be in a savvy hotel in Vienna having an expensive romantic dinner. I remember all that. I miss all that. I want all that back. There is only one person I want it with. YOU. I know I am the one who put all this in jeopardy but I promise never again.

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