kidChink

Once, I saw that I was a speck of light in the great river of light that undulates through time. I was floating with the whole human family. For a few moments I floated, completely calm and not hating having to exist. Like a crow who smells hot blood, you came flying to pull me out of the glowing stream. Turned me into someone who couldn’t take the trouble to speak. Someone who couldn’t sleep, or who did nothing but sleep, couldn’t read or call for an appointment for help. You taught me to exist without gratitude. You ruined my manners toward God. Living among blocks and cotton undershirts with snaps. I was already yours, the anti-urge, mutilator of souls. Was there anything I could do against your coming! Some people can wake every morning, open their eyes and immediately recognize something beautiful, even if it’s just the sun slobbering across the bedroom floor. Why couldn’t I? Whenever I woke, with you I still was. You clinged on, you violent shrew. You were my home, ...