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This Could Be Us

Every father should remember that one day his son will follow his example, instead of his advice.
I wanted to see the reflection of the man I always wanted to be in you. I wanted you to be a son to me, that to my father I couldn't be. I wanted the whole world to be yours because you would have meant the whole world to me. Sometimes I can't help but cry. Sometimes, I can't believe it's true. No matter how many years go by, no matter how far you are away from me, nothing can change the bond between us.

Your birth would have been the reason that regretting would have changed to rejoicing, lamenting would have changed to laughing and sobbing to smiling. Life was going to give me an amazing parenthood, worth bragging out aloud to the whole world. This could have been us, but your mama had to do what she had to do...

You let me know you loved me, in so many different ways. You made me feel important with encouragement and praise. I know life for you wasn't a crystal stair, but through the toil and the turmoil, your love was beyond compare. You taught me the importance of love and respect. You looked out for me, you'd always protect. Would have loved to wish you happiness, beyond dream or desire.

You had so many great traits that I hope to acquire. Countless lessons of life from you I have learnt. Look into my eyes and you shall see, the innocence and solitude in me. I am all alone in this massive ball. No one to pick me up when I fall. This could be us, but only the heart of gold did you leave behind when you entered Heaven's gate. How greatful I would be to have one more day.

I can't explain what I'm feeling. Could this be true? I'm not sure but I think I'm falling for you. To be honest, I think it's quite possible. I'm falling once again, but this time, it's for you. When I see you, my heart skips a bit and I don't know what to say. When I see you, I wonder if you think about me as much as I think about you. Your smile makes me smile, your laugh makes me laugh, your eyes...wow! So enchanting.

You make my thoughts seem daft. Even hearing your name makes my knees weak. If I would have just one more day and wishes did come true, I'd spend every glorious moment side by side with you. Oh! This feeling that I hate. A feeling that would not obliterate. Wanna know about the sad truth? That there will never be a "me and you". That you'll never say you like me too. This could be us, but to you I'm just a friend. Nothing more, nothing less.

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