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Twinkle Twinkle Little Star

"Hun, I'm bleeding! "

Butterflies in my stomach. As I watch her walk down the aisle. My heart is set on fire. Feelings and thoughts through my mind. Feelings I can't handle. Oh! How I wanted you for so long. Never thought this day would come.

Finally, the die is cast. The vows are made. For better for worse. Come grief, come joy, come richer or come poorer. Come rain, come sunshine. The link, which naught but death can sever. If ever two were one, then surely we. From this day forward, you shall never walk alone.

A mommy to be, now you are. I am a daddy to be. Of which I'm super happy. I'm about to go crazy. The best time of our lives is still yet to be. It will start when we shall see our wonderful baby.

Whoever says there's no magic in the world, has never experienced the birth of a child. His toothless smiles will be memories shared. When he falls off his bike and scrapes his knee. When he runs into our arms and we hug and squeeze him.

A few weeks from today, would have been the day. Now he's an angel, even before he was born. But you are not a widow, not even an orphan and certainly not childless. Just one child less. One less open laugh and little boy giggles. One less word of comfort, one less grateful hug. One less new life to carry your eyes, your chin, your grin, my name.

No one word for the pain, the longing of a life meant for living. Trust me, not a day goes by that I don't wish you know how much I love you. No matter what hard times we've been through. I know we are bound for a higher life where we won't bear any more strife. Yet, in the still of this life; not a day goes by, that I'm not praying for you and still loving you. Mwaah!

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